Sunday, March 24, 2013

Random

Salam, g'day peeps!


Hah, I was skimming the timetable or schedule or jadual or whatever you may call, just to confirm that there would be no break until June 2013. I'd say a break although it's just merely one-day off from clinics/classes. Plus two days from weekend which are Friday and Saturday, and thus make it as a 3-day break, huh~

The fact that I had just coming back to USM last week after spending a night home, I wouldn't care more. Seriously, so many things happened such that I just need to come home at least to disentangle whatever that has been messing around  in my head these past few weeks. And so I went home, ate as much as I can, read my fav novels, played with the cats, watched tv and rode my motorbike alone to Setiawan  and yet came back empty-handed. ok tipu. No, I grabbed a track pants instead of a blouse that I initially planned to buy.

Yang part "ate as much as I can" tu pun tipu. My big appetite has somehow shrank, you know, after that incident. I usually don't eat at large quantity at one time but I eat frequently and I love snacking after midnight too. The routine still goes on but in reduced intensity, lah. ha ha!

I went home during last CNY and I stayed put in the house for the whole week. I did go out with my mum but that's it. No dating and outing, at all. So I guess I've been bottling up lotsa things in my mind that I could't afford but being stressed about it. I used to go dating and outing back then when I was younger  in my pre-clinical year. Well, the tension was there but not as much as in once you entered the clinical part. Back then, I was able to meet up with my guy- and girlfriends, catching up updates etc but now it seems that there's a gap between us and it's getting wider and wider as time flies.

It's not that I'm distancing myself or whatsoever.
It's just that with the guy friends, I would say that it's no longer appropriate to simply set a date and meet up anywhere.
As for the girls, well I don't have that many GF to hang out with. Both of them are working now so you know....it's like that. Tipu kalau I say I don't miss them.

So I guess I've been mumbling a lot so I shall put a comma for now.
Till we meet again. Salam alaik!



Wednesday, March 13, 2013

Konon perasan tabah menunggu hingga akhir bulan 9.
Namun, kalau dah melibatkan soal hati, siapa dapat menahan kecuali Tuhan, ye dak?

footnote: escaping won't solve the problem. keep cool, distancing a bit for a sec, and get back on track.
At least, it soothes this heart. 
At least, it disentangles this mind. Even I know it's temporary, but refreshing the confusing mind is not a crime,kannnn..

Oh, I just need a second to "breathe". Seriously.

Monday, March 4, 2013

Luka

Semalam, tapak tangan tercucuk wayar, mujur tak dalam. Tapi, berdarah juga.
Hari ni, ibu jari tersagat dek kertas pasir. 
Sambil gesek2 model orthodontik, fikiran merayap memikir ntah apa-apa. 
Sikit tapi pedih tetap terasa. 
Mujur ada Wan, dapat pembalut luka.