Big Girls Don't Cry.

Assalamualaikumwarahmatullahiwabarakatuh, hye.

I cried.



Yeah, I cried today.

Because of you, I skipped my lunch.
And because of you, I cried.
Please, don't do this to me.
Please.




Allah shows the way when I came across someone's blog.

"La ilaha illa anta , subhanaka inni kuntu minazzolimin". Extracted from Suratul Anbiya', verse 87.

Translation: There is no god but Thou, glory to Thee,I was indeed wrong.

Berabuk sepiking London...

Assalamualaikumwarahmatullahiwabarakatuh, peace be upon you, and good day, people!

It has been ages,no? Gilak lama ku rasa. Yeke?

Entri2 sebelum ini pun, aku banyak post gambar, ayat sepatah dua jek. Wan cakap blog aku dah jadik macam Tumblr dahhhh. Gambo jek semedang... eh, ada la aku post sebelum raya aji ritu. yang tajuk Rendang Daging Segar tu....yang meleret-leret tu..

Entri kali ini agak bersifat rambang (random).. dan agak bersifat rojak baik dari segi bahasa, susunan ayat, pengolahan cerita, opinions, etc. See what I mean..?

HARI INI

Ari nie aku pegi ke KBmall dengan si Zul.
Semalam after PBL, aku n dia pegi Nurani punya kafe, memandangkan kitorang tak makan tengah hari lagi masa tue.

Aku: Zul, kita tadek plan nak g memana kan esok...? (ayat provokasi semata-mata)
Zul: Tu la, aku baru terfikir nak keluar bla.....bla....
Aku: Kalu ko nak keluar, aku nak ikut weyh...
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Dipendekkan cita, kitorang keluar la esoknya. Tadek urusan menda pun, saje je nak kuar. Seriously, aku macam jakun tengok jalan2 menghala ke KBmall tu dah ada pacak2 tiang2 beso nak wat crossover menda la. Sebelum ni, macam terbengkalai jek.No offense la.

Punya la berkurun aku tak keluar merewang. babahahahahaha

So, aku pun ambik la kesempatan pegi betulkan spek aku neh. Gila baru jek ganti cermin 2 bulan lepas, astigmatism/kesilauan mata aku meningkat daripada 175-->300!!

Padan la minggu ni seriously speaking, aku taleh buka mata langsung dalam lecture. Bukan mengantuk, tapi mak ai punya silau lampu DK tu aku rasa. BUT, but,but, ada time emang aku taleh bukak mata sebab aku mengantuk. Sapa tak mengantuk weyh, lecture kul 830 habis pukul 1 tengah hari!

Dan, sepanjang 2 minggu lepas, aku hanya membuka lampu meja tanpa membuka lampu bilik, sebab mata aku jadik sangat sensitif pada cahaya. Photophobia, mungkin?


(apabila aku menggunakan gaya penulisan begini, aku terasa rock/rugged gila la plak)

So, balik dari KBmall setelah berjam2 merewang, aku pun start la operasi basuh baju, telekung,labcoat etc. Alang2 penat berjalan, kan.

Petang, aku pergi ke farmasi untuk membeli loratadine, memandangkan aku dah mula bersin tak kurang 5 kali sepanjang di KBmall tadi. Even, aku rasa sekarang ni macam nak demam jek. Singgah pasar malam, agak lama jugak pasal aku order satu2.

Aku: kak, nak kentang.
Akak gerai yang ligat amik order: emm, WEDGES?
Aku: Ah..? A'ah. (aku tersenyum malu di situ)

Dah siap aku punya kentang, then order plak NASI AIR/MOI/BUBUR NASI/KANJI NASI (ikut suka kome le nok panggil menda pun).

Then, chocolate ice-blended plak. SEMUANYA DI ORDER PADA SATU GERAI. see, betapa aku baik hati nye tidak meng'order makanan2 tersebut sekaligus? Bukan ape, aku tamau la kasik pressure kat akak tu. Boleh jek nak cakap "kak, nak kentang satu, nasi air satu, chocolate ice-blended tamau benda itam yang bijik2 tu satu? See, korang dengo pun tension, kan.Itu la perasaan orang amik order weyh. I know, coz I used to be one.

(sekali lagi, aku rasa macam bukan aku jek yang taip benda alah neh sume, blog kena hacked maybe, ke minda tuh yang kena hacked? Ooops..)

A piece of advice from a dental cum medical student:Guys/Girls, please dont smoke. Not in front of me. Not in front of other people.

An advice from a future dentist: Continue Smoking, and you actually increase your possibility of suffering from oral cancer.

An advice from a girl/wife: Once you start smoking, WE'RE OVER!

Sekian, maaf andai ada ketelanjuran kata, wassalam. :)
oppss: Tambahan, Wan seperti yang disebut di atas, adalah Wan Zarina, kawan sekelas, se-prostho lab, se-study group etc
Zul aka Zulaikha Razak ialah kelas met jugak, merangkap desasiswa-mate, etc. Mcm description hat Wan yg aku cakap tadik tue. heh

CFCS 3rd Residency: Of rain droplets, true colours, fanclub, rejoice, friendship

Dah nama pun makanan dan kebajikan, kan

USM LADIES DAYS: untuk kita-kita aje..!

Assalamulaikum warahmatullah and good day!

ps: kepada yang belum masuk kampung lagi tuh, moh le kita!

RENDANG DAGING SEGAR ~~

Assalamualaikum warahmatullahiwabarakatuh and g'day, mates!

preface

I at first thot that this would be quite a lengthy entry. We'll see how lengthy it will be; I mean, as long as 4-eyed Faiz Kamarul is still able to open up the eyeballs, and and and, ok, we'll see how :)

This is an after-effect of drinking coffee just before midnight. Oh maybe, because of the home-induced adrenaline's rush.

Frankly saying, nevertheless, yours truly herself does not like scrolling down and down, and down and down...and finally end up just skimming whatever-it-is and being as hopeful that "ok, now the gist of it is just......"; as always. I do it all the time, you know.

This skimming trick surely cannot be applied especially when you're reading Robbins and the species. T-T

updates

We're having a short break for Eid Adha, starting yesterday officially, although we finished the dental and medical classes on the day before.

I swear next time I'll be the one who go home first, remember that!!! ~evil grin~

Really, this week has been quite busier than usual. Saying that, I went out to medical classes as early as 8.00 am and only be at the room around 6-7 pm.

Yep, this week I slept in the PPSG musolla. Half-an-hour nap jek pun

Sebab dengar bunyi macam pakcik2 tengah nak betulkan lampu ke menda ntah kat side lelaki. I dont wanna imagine the consequences of not waking up there and then jugak!

That was better because as far as I can remember, I once... oh ok maybe twice...... wait! Maybe more than thrice I should say; went back to the room after 12 hours being outdoor.

Dental class, ya, that 2-hour practical. Uhuh, Pit and Fissure Sealants and PRR.

I skipped one medical lecture this week. Sekian.

abraded heart

Sometimes, some words can hurt hearts. Not one, but many.

Genggam bara api, biar sampai jadi arang.

Never let others let us down.

Yes, I'm trying to motivate myself, InsyaAllah.

musing, reflecting myself

This past few days and coming, I start to think whether have I changed; in some ways which I hope better than before?

Or, did I just comfort ; or precisely lie to myself that I've changed? Am I in denial?

Because sometimes I feel I'm being such a gooood liar. Sometimes to certain people but mostly to this merely human body that I live in.

Katakanlah kepada lelaki-lelaki yang beriman agar mereka menjaga pandangannya, dan memelihara kemaluannya, yang demikian itu lebih suci bagi mereka. Sungguh, Allah maha mengetahui apa yang mereka lakukan~surah an-nuur ayat 30

Dan katakan kepada perempuan-perempuan yang beriman, agar mereka menjaga pandangannya, dan memelihara kemaluannya, dan janganlah memperlihatkan perhiasannya, kecuali yang biasa terlihat. Dan hendaklah mereka menutup kain tudung ke dadanya, dan janganlah memperlihat perhiasannya kecuali kepada

-suami mereka atau

-ayah mereka atau

-ayah suami mereka atau

-putra-putra mereka atau

-putra-putra suami mereka atau

-saudara2 lelaki mereka atau

-putra-putra saudara lelaki mereka atau

-putra-putra saudara perempuan mereka atau

-perempuan (sesama Islam) mereka atau

-hamba sahaya yang mereka miliki atau

-pelayan lelaki (tua) yang tidak mempunyai keinginan kepada perempuan atau

-anak2 yang belum mengerti tentang aurat perempuan

Dan janganlah mereka menghentakkan kakinya agar diketahui perhiasan yang mereka sembunyikan.Dan bertaubatlah kamu semua kepada Allah, wahai orang2 yang beriman, agar kamu beruntung~surah an-nuur ayat 31

dush2, memang berdas2 kena di jantung yang satu ini.

Hati ini kadang2 rasa kecil, konon "betul ke aku cakap/buat/etc ni??? "

U see different Faiz Kamarul's talking, right?

This is what I copy-pasted from frens (thankyou bunny and teddie :) )

"beramal dengan takut riya' adalah suci dari riya', sedangkan meninggalkan amal kerana takut dari riya' adalah riya' ~Sayyidina Ali r.a~

And you know what, as I type word by word by word, I keep thinking that "ok Faiz, this is so not like you...", "Are you sure you wanna post THIS????!! ".

Mengapakah? Surprisingly, why are you being soooo atypical this time, Faiz? *_*

Well, I guess the after affect is slowly decreasing.........

I'm dozing off in 3, 2,.....wait!

marriage

I support early marriage. I support early marriage. I support early marriage. I.. err did I sound quite errrr, uh,nevermind. haha

I support (yeah) and encourage early marriage among youths, eligible youths.

Come again?

Eligible youths.Yes.

Eligibility for me, it means you are ready to hold responsibilities; worldly responsibilities and hereafter's.

Kalau dah suka, pinang sahaja.

I am afraid that this will turn out into another serious subtopic.

ok, aku pegi jenguk fb sekejap, terkejut ada kawan post gambar seram-ciss-howdareyou.

aku fikir sekejap dan terus pegi pada butang "x" kat atas tu.

Arrgh, nak tido la gini.

triple-decker bunk bed. Kau ado?

Sekian, Selamat Hari Raya AidilAdha dan Maaf Zahir Batin.

Wassalam.

Legend

Terlupa, aku hanya manusia biasa!

footnote: This strikes a chord. really. maybe, I need to open my heart; forgiving people who wronged me. For my mistakes as a sinful muslim, Allah is The Most-forgiving.

just slight attention..

Alif dan Papan Carom

Albab-The door

Si Bujang di Bilik

I'm smiling alone now, in the room. (I laugh hard whenever my roomate is around, every single day in our room). She went home yesterday, by the way.

So, why am I smiling right now?

Adalah...

dulu an, pengetua pernah tegur;

"senyum la, faiz. kan lawa nampak lesung pipit tu. Macam saya"

And now I'm laughing out loud. hiah hiah hiah

Launun

Third Booster

Wire yang bengkang-bengkok

Assalamualaikum wth.

Yesterday was a veryy challenging day. I was in the Prostho Lab; from 1130am to 5pm; doing no other thing but yes, the wire bending.

There were 4 wires to bend. Just small wires, with diameters of 0.8mm and 0.7mm; for C-clasp and I-bar/L-bar respectively.

My technician showed me and my collegues the demo on how to bend it and poof, within less than that~6~hour~of~mine, he finished those.

I was so tensed, realizing that this was what my seniors have experienced before. True, I'm not an artful FAIZ, yet.

Some said; Dentistry is all about a mixture of art and skills and knowledge. Guess I've digested the real definition of the art part. (T-T)

ps:pertolongan dari Allah itu datang dalam pelbagai bentuk.

pss: nah, hadiah untuk diri;

M-pop

Sunday, October 16, 2011

23:24

Kadang-kadang, bau baju yang dibasuh di rumah boleh menerbitkan rasa rindu.

Aku sedang mendengar lagu. Ala, kat radio biasa lah Tau, kan?

Cinta Pantai Merdeka. Love of Freedom Beach (terjemahan terus)

Pernah dengar? Sapa yang lahir tahun 90an, tau la kot.

Sapa2 yang layan Kpop, dua puluh empat tujuh ke, sugar-sugar ke mungkin tak tahu. Boleh jadi tahu

Oh, tiba-tiba rasa sayu. Gila nostalgik

Tiba-tiba teringat pada seorang teman yang amat meminati lagu jiwang-karat-tangkap-leleh begini.

Teman, si perempuan

Siap buat jadi "caller ringtone"

Aduhai kenangan

Teman yang pernah diajak "meronggeng" tiap jumaat

Yang boleh bersembang kuat-kuat bila motor berhenti di traffic light

Yang bila gelak, orang keliling tak ingat.

Untungnya menjadi orang yang "lampi" rasa amarah, tetapi memaafkan baginya mudah

Lemahnya diri terasa bila acap kali tak mampu menerima "pengkhianatan" daripada seorang teman

Lemahnya diri terasa bila acap kali butang "delete" di telefon tangan, lincah sungguh jemari menekan

Lemahnya diri terasa tika diri masih tak mampu menjadi orang yang kaya sifat mahmudah

Benar, menjadi lebih baik, siapa bilang tak susah?

Maaf.

Pada teman yang lelaki mahupun perempuan,

Yang dulu pernah sama-sama berjalan,

Dari Teluk Batik hingga Setiawan,

Yang pernah semeja makan,

Walau berlainan pinggan, minum tak pernah secawan

Maaf.

Kerana jarang melayan,

SMS mahupun panggilan,

Walau begitu, kita masih dan selamanya kawan, kan.

(Radio pasang lagu Mawar Putih Untuk Mama la plak, "feeling" lagi...)

nota kaki kanan: keinginan mengepos entri tergeliat disebabkan sambungan internet tanpa wayar dan bayar yang lembap dan malas macam kucing kekenyangan.sila lihat tarikh entri ditaip.

terima kasih sayang pada "orang rumah" kerana ehsan jalur lebar beliau. (kunun nak cari pasal stool culture,tp pitstop kat blog dulu. meh heh heh)

Assalamualaikum warahmatullah.

Tempting Reason

Peace yaw!

Assalamualaikumwarahmatullahhiwabarakatuh.

Good day everyone!

It's been quite a long time huh?

Lots of things happened and are happening everyday as I'm inhaling and exhaling every single breath granted by Allah S.W.T.

I've been back in USM for almost 1 month, alhamdulillah.

This one month has been so packed.

So "sardine-in-the-can" packed.

So packed as a life of typical medical student would be.

Many of us think that being a dental student is simpler or somehow easier compared to "the" other critical course. I used to look at it as if it was like that, too. However, "to think" and "to live as one" are undoubtedly contradicting.

I often try to understand that not every people understands the thing is not what they think. That being a Dental student is as complicated as medical student, as harder as engineering student etcetcetc.

For every gain, there are always double or maybe triple the pain that I must bear.

I realized that complaining and blabbering about hey-you-I-suffer-more-than-you-do thingy do not bring me any good.

Ma kata: mintak pada Tuhan semoga dipermudahkan segala urusan, tak ade kandas-kandas. Tu yang ye nye.

Ma cakap lagi; "belajar memang susah, kamu genggam bara api mesti sampai jadik arang. KAHWIN pun susah."

Aku: .......... *nodding*

Asalnya blog nak dikemas kini dengan gambar sewaktu CFCS Residensi Ke-2, tapi tup-tup panjang berjela-jela la pulak.

sementara menunggu van

suasana di majlis perasmian

*tipah tertipu T:T*

groupmates with a bowl of laksam each.

asam kandis

wah, seronok berbasikal di dalam bas.

harap dapat berBAS lagi untuk pulang di raya haji kelak

peace yaw!

Pre-mother tip

Second Booster

Booster.

Farewell, frens!

Assalamualaikum warahmatullah and good day.

Happy holiday to those who are already at home. :)

Tuai padi antara masak,

Esok jangan layu-layuan,

Intai kami antara nampak,

Esok jangan rindu-rinduan.

Anak cina mudik ke hulu,

Dari hulu patah kuala,

Depan mata buat tak tahu,

Bila jauh hati meronta.

Enak sungguh pisang disira,

Buat hidangan di petang nanti,

Tersentuh, tercubit, tertingkah kata,

Jangan di simpan di hulu hati.

Duduk termenung di atas dahan,

Lepas dahan pindah ke kali,

Semoga cita dimakbul Tuhan,

Sihat minda, sihat jasmani.

Enak sungguh kuih bahulu,

Habis dimakan di pagi raya,

Panjang umur dan tiba waktu,

Moga bersua di Tahun Tiga.

ps: bermula cuti semester terpanjang dalam sejarah pasca-sekolahmenengah.

sidang akademik akan bermula September ini, InsyaAllah.

pss: i'm still in my room in USM.

psss: maaf.maaf.maaf

Sekian, wassalam.

KELASik

Assalamualaikum warahmatullah.

Aku peminat lagu2 kelasik.

I dont have any idea on how these people gather themselves; trying to modernize those P.Ramlee's etc into a deadly, ear-pain, i-feel-like-banging-my-head-to-the-wall catastrophe??

A masterpiece is what u call? Yucks.

Argh. This is so unbearable.

Hello....! Those P.Ramlee's are evergreen lah.

U people made em Nevergreen!

ps: maaf, emo. maaf,

pss: esok isra'mikraj, istighfar byk2 faiz.

Pre-Farewell

I've sent the Heart home. Badan jek tinggal. = , =!

Wasn't it?

thinking of the past and smiling like an idiot.

Shy-shy Cat