Saturday, June 8, 2013

Thursday, April 4, 2013

Air Sejuk

Tadi, panas hati sekejap.
Panas sebab kunun nak membancuh air oren.
Bubuh patinya, bubuh gula barang sesudu.
Bawak cawan keluo kunun nak menadah air sejuk dekat mesin Coway.
Tup-tup setitik pun idok keluo.
Hati pun makin panas.
Hawa dah memang panas,
So, nak marah sapa?
Nak marah panas?
Siapa yang menjadikan panas?
Hah.

Nekad turun ke kedai, niat nak membeli air sejuk.
Balik dari kedai,
Dari jauh nampak anak kucing. Dah kesian pulak, aku pun dahaga, kucing yang taktau ape pun mesti dahaga gamaknya.
Yang selalu dimain masa nak tunggu baju siap di mesin.
Tuang air atas lantai, kunun nak bagi minum.
Anak kucin jilat, sambil pandang muka aku.
Bengong, why on earth did i pour the water onto the floor???
Lalu aku pun jadik cerdik sikit, korban penutup botol jadi cawan kucing.
Kucing pun minum; blap blap blap
"Dahaga ye kamu", aku bermonolog dalaman.

Habih air, kutuang lagi sikit.
Minum lagi.
Lepas minum, mengeleset tepi kaki, terus melompat ke riba.
Dah, lapar pulakkkkkkk..
Maaf cing, mima ada ayo sejuk jek.

1: Kita dahaga boleh la turun bilik, pegi kedai, beli ayo sejuk, minum. Dah kalau kucing, guane tu?
2: Dalam panas2 hari, haruslah muhasabah diri balik.
3: Panas ke hujan ke, Allah tu Maha Berkuasa menjaga makhlukNya. Tak kira la manusia ke kucin ke pokok ke. Berbalik kepada point nombor 1, hati panas sebab air sejuk tadek --> amik keputusan pegi kedai sebab nak jugak air sejuk --> berjalan bilik nampak kucing --> rasa kesian kat kucing --> kucing minum --> aku pun hepi sebab kucin melepet kat riba.
Faham tak apa yang aku cuba sampaikan...?
Perancangan Allah untuk semua memang perfecto! Aku jek yang selalu lupa. Dan leka.

Hayya alal falah!

Sunday, March 24, 2013

Random

Salam, g'day peeps!


Hah, I was skimming the timetable or schedule or jadual or whatever you may call, just to confirm that there would be no break until June 2013. I'd say a break although it's just merely one-day off from clinics/classes. Plus two days from weekend which are Friday and Saturday, and thus make it as a 3-day break, huh~

The fact that I had just coming back to USM last week after spending a night home, I wouldn't care more. Seriously, so many things happened such that I just need to come home at least to disentangle whatever that has been messing around  in my head these past few weeks. And so I went home, ate as much as I can, read my fav novels, played with the cats, watched tv and rode my motorbike alone to Setiawan  and yet came back empty-handed. ok tipu. No, I grabbed a track pants instead of a blouse that I initially planned to buy.

Yang part "ate as much as I can" tu pun tipu. My big appetite has somehow shrank, you know, after that incident. I usually don't eat at large quantity at one time but I eat frequently and I love snacking after midnight too. The routine still goes on but in reduced intensity, lah. ha ha!

I went home during last CNY and I stayed put in the house for the whole week. I did go out with my mum but that's it. No dating and outing, at all. So I guess I've been bottling up lotsa things in my mind that I could't afford but being stressed about it. I used to go dating and outing back then when I was younger  in my pre-clinical year. Well, the tension was there but not as much as in once you entered the clinical part. Back then, I was able to meet up with my guy- and girlfriends, catching up updates etc but now it seems that there's a gap between us and it's getting wider and wider as time flies.

It's not that I'm distancing myself or whatsoever.
It's just that with the guy friends, I would say that it's no longer appropriate to simply set a date and meet up anywhere.
As for the girls, well I don't have that many GF to hang out with. Both of them are working now so you know....it's like that. Tipu kalau I say I don't miss them.

So I guess I've been mumbling a lot so I shall put a comma for now.
Till we meet again. Salam alaik!



Wednesday, March 13, 2013

Konon perasan tabah menunggu hingga akhir bulan 9.
Namun, kalau dah melibatkan soal hati, siapa dapat menahan kecuali Tuhan, ye dak?

footnote: escaping won't solve the problem. keep cool, distancing a bit for a sec, and get back on track.
At least, it soothes this heart. 
At least, it disentangles this mind. Even I know it's temporary, but refreshing the confusing mind is not a crime,kannnn..

Oh, I just need a second to "breathe". Seriously.

Monday, March 4, 2013

Luka

Semalam, tapak tangan tercucuk wayar, mujur tak dalam. Tapi, berdarah juga.
Hari ni, ibu jari tersagat dek kertas pasir. 
Sambil gesek2 model orthodontik, fikiran merayap memikir ntah apa-apa. 
Sikit tapi pedih tetap terasa. 
Mujur ada Wan, dapat pembalut luka.

Monday, February 25, 2013

Extra-fine patience

ps: Been back in USM just one week, yet I'm missing home and my cats already.
pss: When is the confirmed date of  PRU? I wanna book my ticket home.

Friday, January 18, 2013

28

16/01/2013:
 For the first time in my life, I professionally extracted my patient's left upper wisdom tooth. Alhamdulillah.
Cool, yo!
I was lil bit shaking while injecting the LA,though.
But, the doctor came and guided my hand and taraaaaa, that injection worked.

Then, I pricked here, dug there. Rotated the tooth to back and forth, back and forth,back and forth.....

Unfortunately I did not manage to take some photos while doing the extraction. sobs3

It's big deal for me,y'know. Now, I feel like a dentist. Muahahahahahahaha
hey,hey, wish me luck. Salam to all~



Wednesday, January 9, 2013

23 tahun~

Assalamualaikumwarahmatullahiwabarakatuh salam sejahtera.

Saje nak kabo berita/kemaskini/gosip dan seangkatan dengannya. Entri kali ini bersifat santai. Aku cuba untuk tulis secara santai, walaupun dalam hati ada........

Masuk tahun 4 ni is one of  uncountable blessing, tahu. Yelah, considering those 3 years in medical school, in which most of the time we devoted to medical rather than dental stuffs You'll understand if you have read my  aged entries, complaining talking about it.

And yet, bak kata Dr. Fadli; stop complaining stop disheartening, and start strategizing!

So, minggu ni masuk minggu kedua aku masuk klinik. Maksud aku, yeah sebelum ni pun pernah masuk klinik, tapi sejak 2 minggu lepas aku dah start rawat orang. I mean, ORANG. Real patients with zillion complaints, real teeth, real case.

Started with contacting patient, life-lining their names into the system, calling them endlessly just to confirm the date, opening their mouth, digging here, scaling there, poking this and that, we did those until we sent them home.

Tapi, di tengah2 kesibukan klinik, aku terlupa. Sedar, tapi banyak kali leka dan alpa. Asyik kejar requirements, hati jadi tak sabar.

Harus refleksi diri.
Kena niat baru.
Jangan dengki kat orang.
Jangan hasad kat orang.
Mintak jauh, mintak simpang.
Adoila, hati.

ps: sedih pase aku tau aku tak patut rasa and buat camni kat diri aku, kat patient. ce bayangkan kalu aku jadik patient.
pss: 3 bulan lepas, tiap kali ari khamis, semua orang rasa takut pasal itulah satu-satunya ari kitorang masuk klinik. sekarang, personally aku rasa yg every khamis is not that dreadful dah. hahah. especially time bukan turn aku jadik operator.
psss: group aku paling awal ada seminar yang berbagai-bagai. Prostho dah. dengo cite, CONS kena tukar supervisor pulak. And lepas ni Pedo and OMOP pulak.
pssss: Next week i nak extract gigi.


glossary (eceeeecececehhh~~)
Prostho: Prosthodontics; iaitu satu cabang bidang pergigian yang mengkhusus kepada pembuatan gigi palsu, crown and bridge, implants etc
CONS: Conservative Dentistry; mengkhusus kepada rawatan untuk memelihara struktur gigi seperti, tampalan, pengskaleran gigi dsbg.
Pedo: Pediatrics Dentistry; mengkhusus dalam pergigian kanak-kanak
OMOP: Oral Medicine and Oral Pathology; ni bab2 ulcer, barah ke dalam mulut.

last ps: doakan kejayaan bersama yep! Wassalam.