Weekends

Weekends come and go.
Next weekend, it's me who go. Go home.

"It's small but it's a home" -Ron Weasley

Glue.

Glue

I think I'd better stop being like a glue,
Patching up her, him, me and you,
Being the always first one who said "How'd you do?",
Oh God, did you ever wonder what I've been through?

Friendship lasts forever, you say?
How about a simple text, telling that you're away?

So I think I'd better stop,
All hopes, I better crop.

Oh, maybe I'll meet you.
Maybe after a year, or possibly two.

8Nov13


ps: Tough year ahead!
      When the going gets tough, the tough gets going. Tough hati, tough physically! Hayya alal falah!!!!

Senior Year

Tanya si pesakit berumur 5 tahun di wad tadi, "Nok pangge misi ko doktor, awok?"
Aku jawab, "Pangge kakok la."

The oldest kakaks in the school.
Feeling old.

Naik Tahun Lima

Today is the graduating day of the 10th batch Doctors Of Dental Surgery USM. 

Those seniors who previously I called "Kak" are now doctors/dentists.

With that, we are replacing them into Final Year, InsyaAllah. 

Congrats a mega again to graduated seniors!

InsyaAllah, I can make it through like you!

Fighting!

ps: Alhamdulillah, I passed the End of Year Four exam, qualifying me into the final year.

      Cuti peralihan tahun akademik hanya 2 minggu. Will be back in USM for elective etc.

      Year 5 classes will start on 1st Sept 2013. 

pss: Hari tu aku cakap kat Che Din tauke kedai kat desasiswa supaya doakan kitorang dapat naik Tahun 5. 

        Che Din cakap, InsyaAllah naik. Kalau naik pelamin, jangan lupa jemput deh

aku: Dah dapat naik Tahun 5, plan naik pelamin mungkin sudah boleh dimulai, barangkali?

        provided kalau ada rezeki dan bakal suami. Tak gitu?

        Heh.

Bits

Salam.
Just bits of updates to share.

My clinic session will re-start today, well in a few hours. Here, I'm sitting and typing in the middle of finishing my Smoking Cessation Counselling which I plan to conduct at about 10 am today.

Last week was exam week. Not the whole week, of course. I had two papers and 2 stations in two days. Morning was a 2-hour theoretical exam in which we had 8 questions worth 15 marks each. Later in the evening we had active stations. It's like moving from one table to another for every 5 minutes, which in each table we had either a question or A DOCTOR waiting for us to answer accordingly.

Humph, the result will be out in few days, maybe on the 10th. Aaaaaa, I am nervous. Some I could answer well, some were so-so, and some  could not. Aaaaa.
Nevertheless, past is past. Bersangka baik ajelah dengan Allah. InsyaAllah.

Ramadhan is approaching in two days insyaAllah. This year I will be celebrating the first day of this holy month in USM.

Oh ya, by the way, I moved from Desa Murni to Desa Nurani last thursday. So, days after the exam were fully occupied with packing, cleaning and transporting stuffs and not forgetting hanging out and internet surfing as well.

Back to the exam, I reaaly hope that anything happens once the result comes out, I'll accept it with an open heart. InsyaALLAH and with your du'a and pray, I'll be entering the FINAL year in 2 months time. It's like being a form-fiver again with the big final exam awaits at the end of the term.

So, I guess I better put a comma now.
See you soon!
Ttfn, wassalam!

Full House.

ps: 9-16/6/13: Submission of case reports

Air Sejuk

Tadi, panas hati sekejap.
Panas sebab kunun nak membancuh air oren.
Bubuh patinya, bubuh gula barang sesudu.
Bawak cawan keluo kunun nak menadah air sejuk dekat mesin Coway.
Tup-tup setitik pun idok keluo.
Hati pun makin panas.
Hawa dah memang panas,
So, nak marah sapa?
Nak marah panas?
Siapa yang menjadikan panas?
Hah.

Nekad turun ke kedai, niat nak membeli air sejuk.
Balik dari kedai,
Dari jauh nampak anak kucing. Dah kesian pulak, aku pun dahaga, kucing yang taktau ape pun mesti dahaga gamaknya.
Yang selalu dimain masa nak tunggu baju siap di mesin.
Tuang air atas lantai, kunun nak bagi minum.
Anak kucin jilat, sambil pandang muka aku.
Bengong, why on earth did i pour the water onto the floor???
Lalu aku pun jadik cerdik sikit, korban penutup botol jadi cawan kucing.
Kucing pun minum; blap blap blap
"Dahaga ye kamu", aku bermonolog dalaman.

Habih air, kutuang lagi sikit.
Minum lagi.
Lepas minum, mengeleset tepi kaki, terus melompat ke riba.
Dah, lapar pulakkkkkkk..
Maaf cing, mima ada ayo sejuk jek.

1: Kita dahaga boleh la turun bilik, pegi kedai, beli ayo sejuk, minum. Dah kalau kucing, guane tu?
2: Dalam panas2 hari, haruslah muhasabah diri balik.
3: Panas ke hujan ke, Allah tu Maha Berkuasa menjaga makhlukNya. Tak kira la manusia ke kucin ke pokok ke. Berbalik kepada point nombor 1, hati panas sebab air sejuk tadek --> amik keputusan pegi kedai sebab nak jugak air sejuk --> berjalan bilik nampak kucing --> rasa kesian kat kucing --> kucing minum --> aku pun hepi sebab kucin melepet kat riba.
Faham tak apa yang aku cuba sampaikan...?
Perancangan Allah untuk semua memang perfecto! Aku jek yang selalu lupa. Dan leka.

Hayya alal falah!

Konon perasan tabah menunggu hingga akhir bulan 9.
Namun, kalau dah melibatkan soal hati, siapa dapat menahan kecuali Tuhan, ye dak?

footnote: escaping won't solve the problem. keep cool, distancing a bit for a sec, and get back on track.
At least, it soothes this heart. 
At least, it disentangles this mind. Even I know it's temporary, but refreshing the confusing mind is not a crime,kannnn..

Oh, I just need a second to "breathe". Seriously.

Luka

Semalam, tapak tangan tercucuk wayar, mujur tak dalam. Tapi, berdarah juga.

Hari ni, ibu jari tersagat dek kertas pasir. 

Sambil gesek2 model orthodontik, fikiran merayap memikir ntah apa-apa. 

Sikit tapi pedih tetap terasa. 

Mujur ada Wan, dapat pembalut luka.

23 tahun~

Assalamualaikumwarahmatullahiwabarakatuh salam sejahtera.

Saje nak kabo berita/kemaskini/gosip dan seangkatan dengannya. Entri kali ini bersifat santai. Aku cuba untuk tulis secara santai, walaupun dalam hati ada........

Masuk tahun 4 ni is one of  uncountable blessing, tahu. Yelah, considering those 3 years in medical school, in which most of the time we devoted to medical rather than dental stuffs You'll understand if you have read my  aged entries, complaining talking about it.

And yet, bak kata Dr. Fadli; stop complaining stop disheartening, and start strategizing!

So, minggu ni masuk minggu kedua aku masuk klinik. Maksud aku, yeah sebelum ni pun pernah masuk klinik, tapi sejak 2 minggu lepas aku dah start rawat orang. I mean, ORANG. Real patients with zillion complaints, real teeth, real case.

Started with contacting patient, life-lining their names into the system, calling them endlessly just to confirm the date, opening their mouth, digging here, scaling there, poking this and that, we did those until we sent them home.

Tapi, di tengah2 kesibukan klinik, aku terlupa. Sedar, tapi banyak kali leka dan alpa. Asyik kejar requirements, hati jadi tak sabar.

Harus refleksi diri.
Kena niat baru.
Jangan dengki kat orang.
Jangan hasad kat orang.
Mintak jauh, mintak simpang.
Adoila, hati.

ps: sedih pase aku tau aku tak patut rasa and buat camni kat diri aku, kat patient. ce bayangkan kalu aku jadik patient.
pss: 3 bulan lepas, tiap kali ari khamis, semua orang rasa takut pasal itulah satu-satunya ari kitorang masuk klinik. sekarang, personally aku rasa yg every khamis is not that dreadful dah. hahah. especially time bukan turn aku jadik operator.
psss: group aku paling awal ada seminar yang berbagai-bagai. Prostho dah. dengo cite, CONS kena tukar supervisor pulak. And lepas ni Pedo and OMOP pulak.
pssss: Next week i nak extract gigi.


glossary (eceeeecececehhh~~)
Prostho: Prosthodontics; iaitu satu cabang bidang pergigian yang mengkhusus kepada pembuatan gigi palsu, crown and bridge, implants etc
CONS: Conservative Dentistry; mengkhusus kepada rawatan untuk memelihara struktur gigi seperti, tampalan, pengskaleran gigi dsbg.
Pedo: Pediatrics Dentistry; mengkhusus dalam pergigian kanak-kanak
OMOP: Oral Medicine and Oral Pathology; ni bab2 ulcer, barah ke dalam mulut.

last ps: doakan kejayaan bersama yep! Wassalam.

Did we?

Then did you think that We created you uselessly and that to Us you would not be returned?

[23:115]

Paediatric Posting

BEFORE case presentation.

ps: Luka di tangan nampak berdarah, luka di hati hanya groupmates yang tahu. *tears*

Random

The heart must not waver.

The heart must not sway.

Must. Not.

Untimely.

Unnecessarily.

Aja aja Fighting!

foundationcvsrespihematoendocrinegitgutrepropsychicncendocrinemusculobioethics

Wishmeluckeverybadeh~

Booster-Additional Dose+Prophylaxis

Assalamualaikum warahmatullahiwabarakatuh and good day.

Entri ini saja-saja dibuat untuk mengingatkan diri, dan juga kepada sesiapa yang membaca dengan harapan memberi makna walau sekelumit cuma, insyaAllah.

“I do not know my future, but I know who Holds it”, enough said.

Earthquake 11/04/2012

Assalamualaikum warahmatullahiwabarakatuh and good day.

An 8.6-magnitude earthquake struck off our neighbor country this evening.

ps: Cubalah solat wajib di awal waktu. Jangan awal sangat sampai jadik sebelum waktu pulak!

Tadi duduk termenung depan lappy dekat2 5 suku padahal Asar masuk awal dah.

Tiba-tiba bila baca post pasal gempa ni, tersentap "eh, kalau la aku mati time gempa bumi dalam keadaan tak solat lagi. Lambat solat tanpa sebab pulak tu "

Nauzubillah. Astagfirullahhalazim, Faiz oiiiiiii.

pss: Now in the middle of Study month for Medical Professional Exam Phase 2.

I must pass the exam to enter the 4th year, insyaAllah.

Doakan kejayaan kita bersama yek!

Fourth Booster

Jangan dipaksa apa yang belum tiba masa,

Menurut rasa minda binasa,

Mengapa risau perkara yang kabur?

Bukankah semua Tuhan mengatur?

Kita manusia kan boleh usaha,

Tawakal dan doa jangan dilupa.

19022012

Medical note~

RENDANG DAGING SEGAR ~~

Assalamualaikum warahmatullahiwabarakatuh and g'day, mates!

preface

I at first thot that this would be quite a lengthy entry. We'll see how lengthy it will be; I mean, as long as 4-eyed Faiz Kamarul is still able to open up the eyeballs, and and and, ok, we'll see how :)

This is an after-effect of drinking coffee just before midnight. Oh maybe, because of the home-induced adrenaline's rush.

Frankly saying, nevertheless, yours truly herself does not like scrolling down and down, and down and down...and finally end up just skimming whatever-it-is and being as hopeful that "ok, now the gist of it is just......"; as always. I do it all the time, you know.

This skimming trick surely cannot be applied especially when you're reading Robbins and the species. T-T

updates

We're having a short break for Eid Adha, starting yesterday officially, although we finished the dental and medical classes on the day before.

I swear next time I'll be the one who go home first, remember that!!! ~evil grin~

Really, this week has been quite busier than usual. Saying that, I went out to medical classes as early as 8.00 am and only be at the room around 6-7 pm.

Yep, this week I slept in the PPSG musolla. Half-an-hour nap jek pun

Sebab dengar bunyi macam pakcik2 tengah nak betulkan lampu ke menda ntah kat side lelaki. I dont wanna imagine the consequences of not waking up there and then jugak!

That was better because as far as I can remember, I once... oh ok maybe twice...... wait! Maybe more than thrice I should say; went back to the room after 12 hours being outdoor.

Dental class, ya, that 2-hour practical. Uhuh, Pit and Fissure Sealants and PRR.

I skipped one medical lecture this week. Sekian.

abraded heart

Sometimes, some words can hurt hearts. Not one, but many.

Genggam bara api, biar sampai jadi arang.

Never let others let us down.

Yes, I'm trying to motivate myself, InsyaAllah.

musing, reflecting myself

This past few days and coming, I start to think whether have I changed; in some ways which I hope better than before?

Or, did I just comfort ; or precisely lie to myself that I've changed? Am I in denial?

Because sometimes I feel I'm being such a gooood liar. Sometimes to certain people but mostly to this merely human body that I live in.

Katakanlah kepada lelaki-lelaki yang beriman agar mereka menjaga pandangannya, dan memelihara kemaluannya, yang demikian itu lebih suci bagi mereka. Sungguh, Allah maha mengetahui apa yang mereka lakukan~surah an-nuur ayat 30

Dan katakan kepada perempuan-perempuan yang beriman, agar mereka menjaga pandangannya, dan memelihara kemaluannya, dan janganlah memperlihatkan perhiasannya, kecuali yang biasa terlihat. Dan hendaklah mereka menutup kain tudung ke dadanya, dan janganlah memperlihat perhiasannya kecuali kepada

-suami mereka atau

-ayah mereka atau

-ayah suami mereka atau

-putra-putra mereka atau

-putra-putra suami mereka atau

-saudara2 lelaki mereka atau

-putra-putra saudara lelaki mereka atau

-putra-putra saudara perempuan mereka atau

-perempuan (sesama Islam) mereka atau

-hamba sahaya yang mereka miliki atau

-pelayan lelaki (tua) yang tidak mempunyai keinginan kepada perempuan atau

-anak2 yang belum mengerti tentang aurat perempuan

Dan janganlah mereka menghentakkan kakinya agar diketahui perhiasan yang mereka sembunyikan.Dan bertaubatlah kamu semua kepada Allah, wahai orang2 yang beriman, agar kamu beruntung~surah an-nuur ayat 31

dush2, memang berdas2 kena di jantung yang satu ini.

Hati ini kadang2 rasa kecil, konon "betul ke aku cakap/buat/etc ni??? "

U see different Faiz Kamarul's talking, right?

This is what I copy-pasted from frens (thankyou bunny and teddie :) )

"beramal dengan takut riya' adalah suci dari riya', sedangkan meninggalkan amal kerana takut dari riya' adalah riya' ~Sayyidina Ali r.a~

And you know what, as I type word by word by word, I keep thinking that "ok Faiz, this is so not like you...", "Are you sure you wanna post THIS????!! ".

Mengapakah? Surprisingly, why are you being soooo atypical this time, Faiz? *_*

Well, I guess the after affect is slowly decreasing.........

I'm dozing off in 3, 2,.....wait!

marriage

I support early marriage. I support early marriage. I support early marriage. I.. err did I sound quite errrr, uh,nevermind. haha

I support (yeah) and encourage early marriage among youths, eligible youths.

Come again?

Eligible youths.Yes.

Eligibility for me, it means you are ready to hold responsibilities; worldly responsibilities and hereafter's.

Kalau dah suka, pinang sahaja.

I am afraid that this will turn out into another serious subtopic.

ok, aku pegi jenguk fb sekejap, terkejut ada kawan post gambar seram-ciss-howdareyou.

aku fikir sekejap dan terus pegi pada butang "x" kat atas tu.

Arrgh, nak tido la gini.

triple-decker bunk bed. Kau ado?

Sekian, Selamat Hari Raya AidilAdha dan Maaf Zahir Batin.

Wassalam.

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